In The Beginning

As I said in the first post, this Remembering Our Little Ones (ROLO) Quilt was inspired by the loss of my 4 Angels (Micah at 24weeks in Feb 2014, Alison at 5w3d in May 2014 and twins Heidi and Noah at 7w6d in Aug 2015) and the loss of too- many other babies.  When this project came to me the first time, I had lost Alison 2 months before and Micah 5 months.  My Mother-In-Law was teaching me how to make a quilt.  I thought it would be a great way to help with my healing by making Micah and Allison each a baby blanket.

On the early morning of July 29, 2014, Heavenly Father sent me an overwhelming impression that I needed to make a quilt with as many names of babies lost during pregnancy and infancy that I could find. I spent 5 hours arguing with Him, fighting with Him and making as many excuses I could come up with on why I couldn't do this project.  Finally when all of that didn't make the impression budge, but in fact just made it stronger, I relented and told Heavenly Father that I would do this project.

I immediately announced this project to a Miscarriage, Stillborn and Infant Loss support forum I belong too and got an overwhelming response.  So many of the members begged me to add their Angel(s) to the quilt.  They also sent their deep gratitude that through this project, their babies will always be remembered.  In just a few short weeks, members sent me well over 200 names and information of their Little Ones that they wanted on the quilt.

My heart is filled with so many emotions when I think about these Little Ones.  My heart breaks when I think they left so much behind with the stopping of their little hearts.  They left so many grieving families that have to go on without them.  They left behind all the plans, dreams and futures their families had for them.  They left behind what they could have done for human kind and the world.

I then am in awe of what trust and treasure these families are giving to me and the world by sharing the legacy of their Angels.  As I read the information the families send me and enter it into my spreadsheet, as I pick out fabric and then work on their blocks, I grow to love these Little Ones and I feel them near.  They become my Little Ones and I want to do all I can to make sure they will always be remembered.